You do not deserve my respect

I do not like you

I wish we do not know each other

Who the fuck you think you are

What the hell do you think you are doing

I wish you will be burnt in hell

I wish your bad kamma knocking on your door soon

Don't tell me how much I have to respect you

Until you learnt how do you respect my parents.

Bitches!

爸爸的三句话

23年以来，我做了许多别人不爱做的事情，好的坏的，至少轰轰烈烈的23年。

每做一件事，我都告诉自己，敢敢去做吧！你可以！只因为，我背后有着一个让我依靠的男人。这男人，我称他为爸爸。

爸爸名字叫做信用，而他是否一个守信用的人，我想认识他的人都懂。

对我而言，爸爸的名字并不是这么解释。所谓信用，是他把所有的信任，用在我的身上。

从小到大，爸爸对我说过三句我永远都不会忘记的话。而这三句话，打造了今天的我。

第一句话

六岁的时候，我还在上幼稚园。

那一天早上起来，胃就很不舒服。上吐下泻。

可是因为害怕老师的责备，我坚持想去上课。（小孩子单纯吗！XD）

爸爸说，：“我相信你是一根很乖的孩子，但是因为你不舒服，所以没去上课没关系。”

简单的一句话，对一个六岁大的幼儿来说，有多大的意义。这证明了爸爸信任我。知道我不是顽皮想翘课。

第二句话

17岁的叛逆时期，刚考完SPM,我天天都跟朋友出去玩，吃喝玩乐，仿佛是从笼子里被放生的小鸟。

那一天，我又要和朋友到槟城去。

在车上，爸爸对我说：“我相信你的判断能力，你知道什么是对的，什么是错的。所以，我会给你自由，去做你想做的事情，去看你想看的东西。”

结果，当天晚上，我准时在十二点前到家。因为我知道，不能辜负他对我的信任。

第三句话

21岁，大学一年级，我参加了一发千金的慈善活动。这回，我算是满传统的。由于身体发肤，受之父母。我回家跟父母表明，我会把头发都剃光。

爸爸说，“只要是好的事情，而且做了你会开心的事情，那勇敢去做吧！”

那一次，我赢得了孩子们上学的机会，赢得了喝彩，赢得了尊重。

那么多年以来，很多的决定，都让我非常地满意，最然生活很简单，但也相当得圆满。

说话，是一种艺术。

我爸爸从来不会以责备的口吻说“都几点了还不会回家？”

他会问：“还不回家吗？”

原因，不是他害怕我们，而是他懂得，就算是孩子，也有尊严，也值得被尊重。

也许，他不是一个成功的大人物！但他一定是个最上等的好爸爸！

不想

发现

自己成了一个自己不想成为的人

个性，行为，言行举止

都改变了

讨厌的人增加了

不喜欢我的人也增加了

连我自己，也觉得自己很讨厌

有朋友问我

为什么没礼貌

看到人也不微笑一下

我说，因为那时我讨厌的人

对，我讨厌那个人

但我觉得自己有足够的理由

他玩女人

不止

他介绍女孩子给我男朋友认识

不止

他在我背后说我的坏话

还不够

还要说我弟弟坏话

那么厉害相机怎么不自己去买?

我弟弟帮你一分钱都不收

还要给你诬赖

若是真的厉害就不要只会挂在嘴边说说而已

甚至火上加油

这种人，值得我对她好吗？

不值得

对，我变了

边讨人厌了

但是，是你们一手造成的

不会忘记

你问我，为什么

为什么不能和以前一样

为什么不再相信

为什么不再关心

为什么不能忘记

告诉你，因为这是我的选择

选择不再相信，因为不想再受欺骗

选择不再关心，因为尝试过关心变多余

选项恶不忘记，因为要牢牢记住这个教训

一次被伤害，因为无知

二次被伤害，就是愚蠢

永远都不会忘记，去年的今天

你伤害了我，多么的痛

现在的我，与你做朋友

已经是最大的宽容

请勿得寸进尺

累

累了

我好想逃

不想再继续下去

天天猜疑

又何必呢？

我什么都没有了

我不想连亲人都距离越来越远

Hmmm...How True Do You Think This Is?

Alright, it's a typical boring weekend and I have request about this personality test. So these are the results I get. How true so you thing this is right? Leave you comments ^^

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

强者 。 弱者

强者自我检讨

弱者自我安慰

强者担当责任

弱者推卸责任

强者相信自己

弱者相信命运

强者不断精进

弱者原地踏步

抓狂

受不了

真的很累很累

和你一点瓜葛都没有你凭什么来折磨我

他问我说什么时候才可以放下

我知道答案

永远都不会

就算死了我也不会忘记

一辈子都会记住你们所做过的一切一切

这件事也就算了

有个人说我什么都不告诉他

我为什么要告诉你

你又不在乎

告诉你你不是只会保持沉默吗？

你最厉害的就是什么都不说什么都不作当没有一回事

那我告诉你来又有什么用？

还有，我也有心情不好的时候

心情不好有很多原因

不要老是觉得我发脾气

你以为我很空闲老发脾气？

你以为我很开心？

但是，也不管你的事

怎样？

不爽啦？

保持沉默啦！

问那么多干什么？

真的受够了！

不要再烦我，不然我真得不客气

什么情绪？什么想法？

最近一直在想着两个问题

我现在是什么样的情绪？

我现在有什么想法？

今天的我有点低落

情绪起伏有点大

原因？

日子到了，快到了

每一年的这段日子

都一样

灰灰的

凉凉的

今年我告诉自己

不能哭

因为你喜欢我笑

要快乐过生日

代替你，过每一个你没机会过的生日

不能在低落

小雨

要笑

要开心

这才是他喜欢的

今年没去看你了

但是那个草莓蛋糕

我叫Nicky带去了

我会一直想念你的

永远永远

Stop and Stare

How many times in a day that we ever feel miserable?

How many times a week that we frown?

How many times in a month that we cried under our pillow?

And how many times we appreciate what we have?

From what I got from our dhamma speaker today

I thought

How many times a day that I am aware of my own action?

How many times in a day I feel down?

How many times in a day I got pissed?

And how many times in a day I did something good?

Yes, I am aware of my actions sometimes

Yes, I felt down a few times today.

Yes, I got pissed by some insignificant things today.

But no, I did not do anything good today.

Then I thought again

I am wasting my life

Wasting my life and opportunities

Being a mankind

Life is full of bliss

But I am indulging in hatred and greed

Then I saw a video posted by a friend on Facebook

Of a father's love

Then I saw a blog post by a very dear friend of mine

Life is full of happiness

Life is full of hope

Life is full of people that are not as blessed as we are

Life is not only full of shit

Life should be meaningful

Life should be a bliss

Life should be appreciated

Life, is all about standing still on earth

So go, and make your life a better one

As for me, I'm gonna make my life unforgettable

A history is yet to be made

Emo

在家久了

回到这里就会这样

突然之间

没人说话

没有声音

一个人

孤孤单单的

整个人就会情绪化了起来

我也知道这样不好

但是也不知道要怎么做

三年了

还是改不了这个习惯

好想留在家里

一直留在家里

不能晒太阳的阳光美少女

充满阳光气息

热爱阳光

热爱沙滩和海洋的我

竟然

竟然

对阳光敏感

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晒得我

一个头变两个大

别人去玩

开开心心回家

我就要去拜访医生

悲哀啊！

世界上竟然又不能晒太阳的

阳光美少女

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Before

After 

一笑而过

快乐的人了不起

但并非所有了不起的人都快乐

不开心的事情并不是很多

只是我们都会介意不开心的

多过在意开心的

何必呢？

人生终究有尽头

所以

乐活吧！

快乐的生活

开心或不开心

就让他们一笑而过

我不顾形象

也没有形象

照片不漂亮

但是却充满快乐的气息

大声地笑

让不快乐知道

You have no f**king way

Of ruining my life 

XD

Wonderfully Productive

It's been so long since I wake up early in a Saturday morning

Went to Alamanda with Jac

Guess what

We were looking for makeup kit

And some shirts

Shopping was delightful

But the bus waiting and the makeup

DISASTER

haha but overall it was good

Done photoshooting

Hope it turns out good

Hope we weren't the photographer's nightmare

And in the evening

Went to BGF for the  Dhammacakkappavattana Sutta chant

Pretty delightful day

But how come I wrote it in a boring way

Yes, cos I'm tired

haha

Ok I'm done

See ya'll again

Who Cares? If It's FATTENING

After a looooongggggg crave for chocolate cake

I the....finally 

Went out with some hardcore friends for it!!

I enjoyed it much

As much as I enjoyed my life

Yes I might not be pretty

And yes I don't care that cakes make me fat

We only lived once

So go for everything

That makes you smile

=]

Happiness is always here, so appreciate

Just like how I appreciate all of you

My hardcore friends

XD

Bring along my favorite stalker of all time